Oh my!!! she sounds like another stalker I know of... (unfortunately it is me that she stalks)

here is the last official message I'd ever sent to her (before I deleted her from my Myspace accounts- where she got bizarre on me).. but for some reason she thinks I want to connect with her (which I do not)...


here was my last letter ever sent to her ------------>


hello.

I am afraid this may be my last message to you... and I am only replying because you have given me a deadline to do so.

It seems you either want me to love you or to hate you... and I can not do either for you. I do not hate you.... but I do not love you either..... Because of my experiences I have had with you I do not want to continue to communicate with you.

The reason this is my last message is not because of hate. I do not believe in hate. But the reason this is my last message is because you continue to force your energy into my life in ways that I do not like.

I will not make this message sound nice and gentle because it seems that if I said nice things you would think I might like you and you might continue to do the things you've done in the past... so I have to be brutally honest with my thoughts about this situation with you. So I am warning you that these words might feel harsh and may be upsetting to you.

You've told me that you are coming to me from the first message I've ever gotten from you... and I didn't even know you.. and you say you wish to stay with me...when I say I do not wish for you to... and when I tell you not to come... you tell me that you plan to without my permission. (or as you wrote- without my accept)

You have lied to me and have even told me you lied to me... You also tell me that you are lazy and spoiled... and that you don't go to school and don't have a job... and people from your jobs dont usually like you or you quit quickly after. You have apologized to me... and then in a couple more messages you continue to do what you apologize about.

You are a jealous person. and you make me uncomfortable with your jealousy.... When you were on MySpace you would read all the replies from other members writing to me and make comments to me about those replies ... almost as if I had to feel guilty about the things I wrote to them.... like I had to prove something.... I do not like being made to feel guilty for things that don't even matter. It doesnt matter and it never did. You stress me out with your jealousy and I don't even know who you are.

I think you first liked me because I reminded you of your ex-boyfriend (unless that story is a lie... which I still don't know) but then you tell me your ex is probably a prostitute.

You put forth an online energy very much like a stalker.... and anyone who has a stalker in their lives knows how terribly upsetting that can feel... Did you ever read up on what stalker's have done? They destroy people's well being by making them feel insecure and unprotected. Even using the word stalker when comparing yourself (which you have many times) is a terrible thing... and makes the possibilty of that appear even worse. People have been hurt by stalkers... people have been brutally murdered by stalkers... if I don't feel I know you and I tell you you are like a stalker... that isn't a very comforting thought.

You have left messages with me that feel like you want to fulfil some erotic fantasy of yours... like you want to be my little girl..... or you want to be a gay boy and me to be your daddy... The thought of this makes me sick. I DO NOT think in this way. I have worked with children. I have worked with orphans and kids who have been sexually abused by adults... so this fantasy is something I DO NOT want to be a part of... I don't mind that adults can have fantasies like this with each other.... but I don't like it for myself at all.


You probably can be a very nice person, but because of all the aspects I have been feeling in regards to many of the messages you've sent me throughout this time, I do not have the interest in continuing with conversations with you. I have no interest in meeting you, it will not change how I feel about this situation... in fact, it may just make it feel worse.

I think you need to connect with someone that understands you... and I think this person should be someone you connect with in reality.... I am not that person.